I have a fun story to share with you this week.
When I started down the spiritual path I had a difficult time believing in and trusting things that couldn’t be seen. I had a lot of doubt about my own power back then because I had grown up believing that things like Tarot, Reiki, and Spirit Guides weren’t real and only crazy people believed in them.
It took a lot of challenging and reshaping my old beliefs to shift out of that story and become the person I am today.
However, aspects of my old story still surface every now and again. Every so often the side of me that doubts my power comes up to the surface craving proof that the things I believe in are real. That side of me showed up last weekend while reading Attracting Money: Manifesting Abundance. The book starts off discussing manifestation and offering various techniques. I’ve read quite a few books about manifestation, but the guidance given in this one really resonated.
As I continued reading, I sensed my doubts perking up their ears to challenge what I was learning.
If this stuff works why don’t you manifest a penny from 1978?, they said. I had manifested plenty of pennies before, but I had never requested one with a specific date. I felt kind of like a smart ass for being so specific, but I went ahead and set my intention.
I found myself scouring the ground for pennies on my way back to my car after I got off work, desperately wanting to find one, but wondering what I would do if it wasn’t from 1978. I didn’t come across any pennies Sunday and, to be honest, I kind of forgot about my challenge.
I was originally off work on Monday, but I had a text message from my manager asking if I wanted to come in for five shows because someone had called out that morning. The message was from an hour earlier, which made me think they had probably found someone by then to cover the shift. I texted back asking if the shift had been covered, but it hadn’t, and I agreed to come in for the remaining shows.
I got to work and I was dropping my stuff off in the boy’s dressing room when I spotted a penny sitting on the sink.
I walked over holding my breath to check the date on the penny. I picked it up and just started laughing. The Universe delivered a penny – check out the date for yourself in the picture above.
I learned a great lesson from this experience.
It’s okay to have doubts! Maybe they’re showing you where you have room to grow and expand beyond your limits. There’s a passage in the book I’m reading that says:
Do not feel bad about negative thoughts you have, for fearing or disliking your negative thoughts gives them more power. Respond to negative thoughts as you would to small children who do not know any better; simply smile and show them a better way to be.
I could have shied away from this challenge, fearing that I wouldn’t be able to find my penny. I would have continued doubting my power and the Universe and probably have felt guilty for even having doubts. Instead, I chose to take it on and make it a game. I feel like the Universe responded to this playful energy and lined up the circumstances to help me find my penny.
I was open and available instead of closing myself off by judging myself for having doubts.
Reflect on your own life this week and see where you’re currently doubting yourself. Where are your doubts showing you that you have room to grow beyond your limits? How can you show yourself compassion at this time? What “better way to be” can you show your doubts and fears that will help you push beyond your limits?
P.S. If you have any fun manifestation stories, I’d love to hear about them! Leave a comment below to share!